December 28th

Its 28 today. And well, its my fucking b'day. BUT im totally not in any mood to celebrate or do anything. Somethings fucking bothering me, Not just 1 particular thing , but a few, the one big reason im not happy at all is that, something's missing , it had been missing for the past 2 years, I miss her so very much.Just think it this way, someone who have been there ,always! Day in day out, everyday she'll be nagging at me, She'll be the 1st every year to wish me happy birthday for the past 15 years.Its so fucking different not having someone so important to me by my side anymore to celebrate my b'day with me. I do miss her so very much for the past 2 years. She'll be the number one in my heart period. Mom, you're always the best. =) sigh. Theres other reason, but i just dont feel like blogging about it. sigh, im out.